I had an amazing moment the other day. I’ve been dealing with all these new energies and I learned I can burn them into will. Let them burn, all those base level energies, in my solar plexus where my will meets Universal will. And from there, it all rises like steam. There’s an air and expansiveness in the heart.

But my root chakra kicked in with a force. I don’t know why. Like I crashed. I could do such dark, dark things from that place.

There must be something wrong with the way I love, the way I manage my energy. Something about it is too fierce. It is a problem I am working on.

I know peace is mine, if I only surrender to it. But I have a hard time feeling the truth of those words today.

I emailed my metaphysician. I described my situation and he asked me what I was talking about, what method I was following. I told him none. I don’t know what I’m talking about and this is my experience. And I sent him so follow-up details, such as me having two beers for breakfast.

After I send the messages, I’m sitting at my computer, and I feel a change. I put my feet flat on the floor, sit up straight, and wait for what happens. Its like a telescope inside my core. I listen. Its quiet. Yellow, blue, green, white. Looking out, in, up, down. The moment passes. A few minutes later, I get a message from him saying a lot is going on and I should stick with the grounding exercises he taught me.

I can’t say if it was him or not – the telescope inside. I can’t say anything other than the Universe doesn’t think I have a problem at all. My ego is back.