Below is an August 1, 2009, facebook message string. I made it a facebook note and posted to my profile. Now, I am sharing it with you. What do you think? My favorite line is “Your thought process is just so wrong and icky!” I don’t think I’ve had my thoughts called “icky” before. I kind of liked that and used that quote as my status update for a few days.

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Brother
Today at 4:25am
I called and you were too busy for me and did not call back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Me
Today at 8:34am
I am going through some shit right now my own self and cannot be on call to help you feel loved. Every time I talk to you I feel so drained by it all. And, I do love you. But, I also love my Self.

Brother
Today at 1:35pm
“on call to help you feel loved”. Haven’t talked in years – how is this anything near “on call”?

I don’t discuss family stuff anymore that might make poor little you feel “drained”. But this, you would not know, since we don’t speak. If you kept in touch – you might find people change in time.

You are alone most days posting on facebook every hour- how much more can someone love themselves? Way too self-absorbed for me.

Well this is what I would say if I were your brother. Don’t worry, I’m getting off your facebook. It is just too hard to stand by and watch him be treated like garbage.

Normally I don’t look at his facebook stuff, but your little hate mail comment above came through on my e-mail. I would be remiss not to reply in his defense. As I really DO love him.

You are lucky to have him as a bro, but just go back to loving and adoring yourself.

Ugh!

Sister in-law
Today at 1:40pm
Oh – and one other thing. He is by no means needy of your love. He was just reaching out to re-connect, figuring if he did not, you surely never would. And this could go on for several more years.

He was attempting to be what they call a “brother”.

Your thought process is just so wrong and icky!

Brother
Sorry about e-mailing you while drinking late last night
Today at 2:00pm

Me
Today at 7:57pm
You’re sorry or your psycho wife? I never know who I’m talking to or going to talk to with you which is WHY I don’t talk and don’t want to talk to you. One day, years ago, you called me about a fight you and she had. Something about salt and McDonald’s, bullshit as usual. I cried for weeks with worry for you. Not going to do that again. We all make our own way in life. Good luck with yours.

Sister-in-law
Today at 2:36am
Thought you loved yourself too much to speak to him. Aren’t you too drained to continue?

Oh, and the “psycho wife” is definitely not sorry – my words were intended and sober.

Crying for weeks over a “bullshit” McDonald’s argument we don’t even remember? Hmmm …. and who is the “psycho” here?

Saying I am a reason you two don’t talk is just a cop out. You have created this impass over the years and today all on your own.

I will type no more to you, so drop my name from your hatemails please.

Brother
Today at 9:40am
Wife sent you the last message, not me. She sent the others while I was at work. I do not appreciate your post.

[Note to all: I am actually very needy (aren't we all?). And, you can *always* unfriend me for that.]